24

Okay so I am kind of nervous and kind of excited.

Da Hubs has a 3rd stage interview for a new job next week - in Australia!
This is the final stage and if he gets the offer the company will sponsor him for a visa which makes it easier.

So just got to wait and see how it goes, but in the meantime we have to try and find out as much as possible about how to get organised in life over there just in case.
I think if he is offered the job it will all happen very fast, and there is sooooo much to think about. Getting the visa processed and approved, flights, packing our entire life, leaving behind all our family and friends, deciding what to actually take with us, sorting out somewhere to live once we get there, health insurance, tax rules, pension stuff. It is all very confusing.

I feel a bit like life is on hold at the moment. For example we want to buy a food processor/blender this weekend, but should we bother, or should we wait until we find out if we are moving over 10,000 miles away?

I am really not happy at work and desperately want to leave, but don't see the point in applying for jobs if we could be moving in a few months.

If he gets the job I will be delighted to get a fresh start because:
-I do not enjoy my job.
-We have no friends where we live
-We have no social life
-I have no money to go do anything eg shopping, gym, join clubs
-Our health has been terrible for the last few months, i think because we are both stagnating
-I can feel myself drifting towards depression again, because of all of the above.

I am scared that I am getting too excited about this potential change, and pinning all my hopes for an improved life on it. I need to be able to improve my life where I am and by myself. I cannot rely on Da Hubs to fix what I am not happy with, cause I am soooo happy with him and he does not need that pressure. He is the one thing in my life right now that I am happy and settled about. He is the one thing I do not want to change.

23

Yay! one of my former roomies just gave birth to a beautiful baby boy today! It's her second.
She was told years ago that it would be very difficult if not impossible for her to get pregnant, so I am especially pleased that she and her husband have been able to have their much wanted family.
Lots of positive thoughts for little Brodie so he may have a happy and healthy life.

22

My boss(mid 60's) just sent me out to buy 2 cans of Pina Colada for her mother (80's). I shoved on my MP3 player, grabbed my office keys and off I went. Just a wee run down to the shops so no need to take my wallet, never mind my handbag.
Stand for 5 minutes in a huge queue cause there were only 2 tills on.
And i get ID'd.
I am 29, I know I don't look it. But come on, surely I must look over 17!
Apparently not.
They called over 2 managers, and they were both just not interested.

So I had to return to the office and my boss who was waiting for me so she could go home for the night empty handed.

Sooooo embarrassing, being ID'd in front of a huge queue of strangers, then having to walk back into the office and tell the rest of my workmates.

And don't anyone try and tell me that looking 12 years younger is a compliment! It is just annoying and untrue.

21.

Da Hubs is sitting on the couch suffering from a critical case of man flu. He has been bored and moany all weekend and refusing to take the medication i bought to help make him better.
BUT
He has now discovered The Hills. he is watching the catch up on MTV and is loving it. It is soooooo funny. Everytime I wander through to the living room he is all like "Lauren is the only mature sensible one" or " Why is Heidi with this guy?" I cannot believe he is watching such trash and enjoying it so much.
At least it leaves me free to come on here in between preparing for my interview on Tuesday. Will tell you more if it goes well.

20

Going for dinner in London tonight with Da Hubs, Father-in-Law and Step Mother-in-Law.
Not totally looking forward to it.

Last time I saw the SMiL, she asked if I was pregnant.
This was while we were sitting at dinner on our wedding day. We had all our parents surrounding us. If we had been pregnant - which we are not, and not even trying - and been at the stage of telling people we would certainly have told our parents already. If we weren't ready to tell people then she had just put us in a very difficult position. Not very nice to sit and lie to all your parents, then turn round a few weeks later and admit it.
We have also told them several times prior to the wedding that we want to wait a couple of years after being married before trying to get pregnant.

So yeah, with my recent weight gain I am fully expecting to be asked again tonight. If they do ask i might have to say something quite blunt.

We really want to have our own home before we start trying, and be a bit more secure in our jobs ie full-time hours and no risk of redundancy. DH would like a bit more of a salary and I would quite like to be in a firm that offers more than statuatory maternity pay. Would probably be an idea to have a car too. So there is quite a lot we need to do before we can start trying.

And we won't be telling people when we do start. (well I might write it here so ssssshhhhhh.)
From what I have heard once people know you are trying to get pregnant your personal life becomes pretty fair game. And I can totally imagine the SMiL calling every other day to check on progress and offer far too personal advice.

And if we do get pregnant I will be getting a "Do Not Touch" t-shirt.

19

Oh Dear!
After being healthy and exercising well for the wedding I got my weight to 10st, and my fat ratio was down.
We bought a set of bathroom scales at the weekend.
Now I know i stuffed myself on honeymoon, and I have had to cancel my gym membership as a cost cutting exercise and I haven't been quite as healthy in planning our meals.
But seriously, 11st 8lbs!
I walk for over 30 mins everyday, at a bloody good pace and half that time up a HUGE hill. I don't eat excessively (except fajitas and lemon chicken), don't eat a ton of chocolate or crisps and I barely drink alcohol.
So how the hell have I put on over a stone and a half in under 5 months?
So i am back to improving the healthiness of my meals, and have to figure out a way to get plenty of exercise without joining a gym or buying any equipment.
Guess married life agrees with me.

18

I need a new job. My current one has cut my hours to 4 days a week for 5 of the 9 months so far this year, and it is not likely to change anytime soon.
I really cannot stand one of my workmates. She seems to think I am there to run after her - she is incapable of addressing an envelope and yesterday asked me to shred her personal cheques!
I have so very little to do in the office, my role has changed so much from when I first started here. Compared to my last role which challenged me and kept my brain working this one just seems to be killing me off slowly.
Last night I was at the point of handing in my notice despite not having anything to go to and this morning I was dreading coming into work.